Gifts

So, I have discussed pursuing greatness and yes I am in pursuit of my version of greatness.  A few days ago I had a minor setback in my pursuit when I didn't win an award from my peers that I thought I deserved.  I was disappointed to say the least.  A small diversion in my long term plan.
I am discovering that I will need to show what I am hiding.  Am I willing to strip myself naked and show the rest of me and my gifts?  The things I am hiding I am not ashamed of, in fact I am proud of, but I have not showed them out of some sense that those who judge me would be jealous or somehow think I am not faithful to them and the cause that I have now made mine.  That begs the question, "Will they be faithful to me once I show all of me?  Will they use my gifts?  Or will I be left on the side of the road like many others who have come before me?"
Greatness and destiny is only achieved by those who are willing to fail, those who are willing to show all of themselves in order to win.  I have laid it all on the line before and usually win, but not in this arena and that's where my discomfort comes from.  I am nervous but determined to move forward in my quest for greatness, destiny and respect.  Only I am accountable for me and what happens to and for me.
I'm sure this sounds like a lot of incoherent babble but hey I have nowhere else to write this stuff.

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I'm Out!
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Passion and Greatness Part II

I asked the question, "Is my muse the obvious one or one that is hidden?" in the first version of Passion and Greatness.  Well just know that I am workin on the obvious.  I will pour all the passion I have into the obvious.  It's the one everyone sees and the one I see.
Now, the question I ask is will throwing so much energy and passion into something make her become my muse at some point?  She may already be my muse, but only time will tell.
Though I have had a fantastic life and I am thankful for it, it is not enough.  I'm not great yet, I'm not the best yet but I will be.  I am becoming more comfortable with the feeling of being content with not being content.  Happy where I'm at but not happy......just stayin' hungry baby, just stayin' hungry!
I won't let my reluctance to put energy into the obvious turn into procrastination and paralization.  My procrastination has cost me time and most recently cost me financially, but more importantly caused those that are closest to me to be dissappointed in me.....the worst feeling in the world.  It will not happen again.
Look out world.  Here I come and I ain't asking questions, I'm kicking ass and gettin' names later!

That's All I Got!
I'm Out!
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Gametime

Saints 31, Colts 38

That's All I Got!
I'm Out!
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