Deny, Deny, Deny...Then Blame Others

Roger Clemons is funny. He strolled around Capitol hill introducing himself and signing autographs like that would give him some kind of free pass to lie to the Congressional Committee while under oath.

Has he somehow convinced himself that he didn't take performance enhancers? Maybe but he is an idiot. He is a white guy who had a stellar rep and a tough, gritty guy persona. All he had to do is say, "I made a terrible mistake in trying to continue to compete at a high level, I'm Sorry."

All would have been forgiven in a short period of time. Certainly if Giambi was forgiven, Clemens would have been. This is like a get out of jail free card for most white athletes and a few black ones. Unfortunately for Barry Bonds he is not one of the few. Being Black, defiant, a poor teammate and an asshole is not a good combination according to some of the white media apparently.

The genius that is Roger Clemens somehow forgot about the get out of jail free card and went into "my girlfriend caught me with another chick" mode........Deny, Deny, Deny.

He basically has told us as fans and the committee that we are all idiots and I will deny this until the bitter end. The end will be bitter because this is going to end badly for the genius.

Here are some of the things that don't pass the common sense test:

1. Your best friend and fellow pitcher Andy P. took HGH twice (also a lie) but you never did?
2. Your best friend misunderstood you when you said you took HGH?
3. You are a pro athlete yet your wife is the one taking HGH?
4. You got significantly better as a pitcher after the age of 38?

Here is what I think may be an important point that many people are missing. Roger has consistently said that he has not taken steroids or HGH. That does not mean he did not take other drugs. History has shown us that whatever we as fans know about in terms of performance enhancers the athletes are two or three drugs past that point. Bill Romanowski said that his strategy was to look at the banned substances list and see if he was using any of the new additions. If he was he would just move on to the next drug.

These days lying even when the truth is perfectly obvious seems to be the norm. Deny, Deny, Deny then blame everybody else. Where are the 'Stand-up' guys at? It's funny to see Roger showing his true colors after the media has portrayed him as a 'stand-up' guy. Truth is there aren't too many real ones anymore. The real ones are vilified and the bad guys are the good guys. This world is upside down.

My boy Derek Andersen got a $20Million contract with the Browns today. I am happy for him.

That's all I got!

I'm Out!

44Black

Mortality

I am staying up keeping busy because I want to keep my mind off things. I am tired and ready to go to bed but that would be too quiet, Too easy for me to think. I found out to day that my mother has Glaucoma. It appears to have been caught early on so things should be fine.

I have to admit that I am a little shook up by it though. My mother is the only one who has always been there. Others have come and gone but she has always been there. I have kept myself busy all day so I would not have to think about it too much. Now I'm left with three choices for the rest of the night: 1) write 2) drink 3) sleep.......I think I will do all three in that order.

I always feel a little alone but I feel even more so right now. I guess realizing the mortality of someone who has been in your life for every day of your life can give you that feeling. I think I also have that feeling because I lost my grandparents when I was young too and they were like parents to me also.

I remember when my mom got her first apartment at the college she was going to. It was an old red brick building with white trim. My grandparents dropped us off in their white 4 door 64 impala. I don't think the electric was on yet because I remember thinking how much fun it was to be sitting and eating cheese, bologna and crackers by streetlight.

She worried about me playing football but then became my greatest fan.

Time for step 2.

That's All I Got!
I'm OUT!!
44Black

Potential is Destiny Wasted

You ever feel energized yet held back at the same time? I feel motivated right now yet people around me aren't. I want and try to motivate some of them and others I don't care. Most of all though, don't get in the way, don't impede me.

To me its' like what Bill Gates said, "Lead, follow or get out of the way." Right now I am leading and I am motivated to do so. The bad thing about me (I don't really know that this is bad) is that when I am motivated everything needs to go on a timetable...my timetable. I know for a fact that I am not always motivated so when I am, let's move and move now.

I guess I'm just frustrated and needed a place to vent and this is it. I am tired and feel alone right now. I feel like I am the one who sees my vision and no one else sees it. Its' my job to sell my vision, but I am tired of incompetence. I am tired of complaining out loud and in my head about people who are either in my way or act like they are on board when they are not.

God puts funny tests in front of you sometimes. I think this is one. Don't get all of this wrong. I am in a positive place, a very positive place and that is why this stuff bothers me even more. I see, smell and can almost taste what God has in store for me and others. Yet some people can't seem to get the car out of park. I used to be one of them. I am not anymore. I have grown to hate potential. Potential is destiny wasted. Has anyone said that before? That's Good!!!!!!!

NEW QUOTE FROM 44BLACK, "Potential is Destiny Wasted"

If I seem pressed, it is because I am. Not presssed like I will make hasty or poor deciisions but pressed like, "Let's get on with it." If you aren't ready that is fine but could you please get off the bus here?

That's All I Got!!
I'm Out!!
44Black