The Demon Ain't Dead
If you have read this blog in depth at all you know that I have a demon that I exorcised from my life years ago. I have never fully explained the role of the demon when he was in my life, but maybe it is time. I will explain it, but I will make it brief.
The demon was my step-father. He was in my life from the age of 5 or 6 until I was 18 years old. His name is Ransom Baker Hughes and he works for the government in the forestry service. From age 8 to age 14 or 15 I was sexually abused by this man....the demon. The abuse only stopped when I refused to cooperate any longer.
Although I did not have the fortitude to out him to my family I at least got the abuse to stop. I still after all these years am not sure if my brother and sister were in the same boat as me. The drug and legal issues my brother has had indicate to me that he had the same experience or has been affected by being aware of my abuse. In fact, it was my brother that outed him. He told her of what happened to me. My mother immediately boarded a plane to Atlanta to see me and confirm this information. Obviously this led to their divorce and the demon was out of all of our lives right? Not quite.
My sister stayed in touch with the demon I guess to determine if she could live without her father. During that time she discovered that the demon was going to remarry. Of course he was remarrying a lady with children. I felt obligated to talk to this woman.
When I called her she refused me. She did not validate my claims by being at least willing to listen to what I had to say. Throughout this process, even though I was the victim people have not acknowledged my pain or trauma. This lady did the same by saying and indicating that she was aware of what happened and that she was not at all concerned. I must say that was painful but I moved on because I had my own issues to deal with from this ordeal.
That was 13 years ago. Last week the demon's current wife, yes the same lady, contacted me via facebook and asked me to call her as she has been alarmed by some things. I was shaken as soon as I read her message. I was not sure I wanted to re-open this wound. I tried to deliver the message to her many years ago and she did not acknowledge me. So why should I acknowledge her now? But then my thoughts turned to the possibility that her kids or some other kid is being hurt by him. "The demon ain't dead" I thought to myself, "he is only out of my life.
I called her and she explained to me that he has been surfing the web for gay sex, kiddie porn and searching craigslist for gay sex and probably for underaged victims. Now her eyes are open and she is willing to listen...13 years later. What about your kids lady? If someone said to me they may have a child molester in their life, I am investigating it. Regardless of whether I have kids or not.....NOW not 13 years later.
I delivered my message to her bluntly and directly so that she could clearly see the difference between what she was told by the demon and the truth. Turns out she told her that he taught me how to masturbate and that the whole situation was misunderstood? Even that sounds improper. Besides that was not close to what went on.
Needless to say she was shocked by the truth.
"That is not what you told me before" she said.
"You didn't allow me to get that far. You said that you knew the situation and that it was not that serious."
After I got off the phone I felt a hole in my stomach. It saddened me know that the demon is still alive. I am not sure how to legally slay the demon. I made efforts years ago to have him locked away. Maybe it is time to attempt again.
This whole post may be TMI and I apologize for that. Oh, I take that back. It is my blog after all.
That's All I Got!!!!
I'm Out!!
44Black
The demon was my step-father. He was in my life from the age of 5 or 6 until I was 18 years old. His name is Ransom Baker Hughes and he works for the government in the forestry service. From age 8 to age 14 or 15 I was sexually abused by this man....the demon. The abuse only stopped when I refused to cooperate any longer.
Although I did not have the fortitude to out him to my family I at least got the abuse to stop. I still after all these years am not sure if my brother and sister were in the same boat as me. The drug and legal issues my brother has had indicate to me that he had the same experience or has been affected by being aware of my abuse. In fact, it was my brother that outed him. He told her of what happened to me. My mother immediately boarded a plane to Atlanta to see me and confirm this information. Obviously this led to their divorce and the demon was out of all of our lives right? Not quite.
My sister stayed in touch with the demon I guess to determine if she could live without her father. During that time she discovered that the demon was going to remarry. Of course he was remarrying a lady with children. I felt obligated to talk to this woman.
When I called her she refused me. She did not validate my claims by being at least willing to listen to what I had to say. Throughout this process, even though I was the victim people have not acknowledged my pain or trauma. This lady did the same by saying and indicating that she was aware of what happened and that she was not at all concerned. I must say that was painful but I moved on because I had my own issues to deal with from this ordeal.
That was 13 years ago. Last week the demon's current wife, yes the same lady, contacted me via facebook and asked me to call her as she has been alarmed by some things. I was shaken as soon as I read her message. I was not sure I wanted to re-open this wound. I tried to deliver the message to her many years ago and she did not acknowledge me. So why should I acknowledge her now? But then my thoughts turned to the possibility that her kids or some other kid is being hurt by him. "The demon ain't dead" I thought to myself, "he is only out of my life.
I called her and she explained to me that he has been surfing the web for gay sex, kiddie porn and searching craigslist for gay sex and probably for underaged victims. Now her eyes are open and she is willing to listen...13 years later. What about your kids lady? If someone said to me they may have a child molester in their life, I am investigating it. Regardless of whether I have kids or not.....NOW not 13 years later.
I delivered my message to her bluntly and directly so that she could clearly see the difference between what she was told by the demon and the truth. Turns out she told her that he taught me how to masturbate and that the whole situation was misunderstood? Even that sounds improper. Besides that was not close to what went on.
Needless to say she was shocked by the truth.
"That is not what you told me before" she said.
"You didn't allow me to get that far. You said that you knew the situation and that it was not that serious."
After I got off the phone I felt a hole in my stomach. It saddened me know that the demon is still alive. I am not sure how to legally slay the demon. I made efforts years ago to have him locked away. Maybe it is time to attempt again.
This whole post may be TMI and I apologize for that. Oh, I take that back. It is my blog after all.
That's All I Got!!!!
I'm Out!!
44Black
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